God, can you give me some direction?
It would be nice if you could.
Iíve got to do something to re arrange my life
I know itís something I should be doing,
just to save myself and my sanity too
I am killing myself here, and itís not about you
Itís about me.
I have never been in this place before
And so I donít know how to do it
Or what it is for.
I have always been in control of my life
but this time, no.
Options are unknown, so I just donít know.
Should I leave the planet? An easy thing to do for me,
but not so easy for some others, I see.
Should I pack up and travel?
That would be by myself
I donít know that I have the strength
to follow that through.
I tried it not long ago to Peru.
A challenge. I did it and managed
to negotiate in broken Spanish
Sometimes, I feel I would like the company of another
A kindred spirit, someone I could be with, but no bother.
Thatís hard to find, especially at my age
and my current life stage.