I donít need this
I donít need this in my life
It is so, so mad
It is so, so sad
Why did this ever happen for me?
Iím sure I was smart enough to see
But obviously not.
My reactions are shot
They are like my fathers, and thatís not nice.
I know I try to manipulate
I know I have a streak of bitterness
I know I am leading towards my own fate
Can I abate
Before it is too late?
I donít think I can, and yet
this experience has been so important to me.
This experience has taught me to see
that none of us are an exception from our insecurities, hypocrisies and self-deception.
Maybe our humanity will be some protection
from our egos and our imperfection.